~ Lose Something to Learn Appreciating Others ~

Another paper down, which means I had completed my Business Law paper. Well, nothing to describe about it this time because I just write whatever I can. It's such a boring paper though, 3 and a half hour, it's making me sleepy. Plus the weather recently is so damp and cold.

Tomorrow is my last paper, yeah, I'm excited but part of it not. Wonder why again, haha. Can't wait for the plans my girls and I made, I'm sure it'll be super fun. And I really wanna appreciate those time with them because I'm not sure where I'll be next year. I hate bitches but I love mine! :) This is to all my best friends, darlings, babes or who ever. Sincerely appreciate much.

I'd better continue revising now, wish me luck and give me strength for my last paper. Stay tune as I'm sure there'll be many photos awaiting. By the way, I miss my mummy and I really wants her right now. Home sweet home.

*Why must people always force me to hate and be disappointed when I really don't wanna do so. On another issue, thanks for waking up so early to fetch me and accompany me for the whole afternoon.*

*Toodless*

*2nd day without him*

~ Not Even Sunshine Could Light Up My Day Like You ~

Thanks for willing to spend time with me before it's over. Never ending thanks again for everything you ever did for me including your promises and being frank. It's what I deserved after making the biggest mistake and regret in life to you, I guess you know what I meant. I'm happy enough that I had it before and be part of your memories and life. I promised I'll be myself and I will, you knew I always will if I said so. It's really tough for me, but I'll try. Anyway, hope you'll find your happiness with your new life and all the best for your future undertakings. I'm sorry I can't be the one to guide, help, love, and change you anymore. I lost the power, and everything I ever owned. And now I'm tired, I knew I could never give you what you want, so I guess it's time for me to back out. You always thought I'm stronger, but I'm so not. I'm not perfect and I can't be, I'm sorry. I know I should try to let go if i love you though it's really not what I want. Again, you knew I would do anything just to see you happy and lead a good life in future. So, don't disappoint me. It's time for me to learn to stand up again after falling so many times. Just to let you know, my love for you will always remain in a little corner of my heart and everything about you in my heart and soul will never change. We wouldn't know what is going to happen on the road we've chosen and we wouldn't know whether it's the right choice, but this may not be the last between us and it may be as well. I do still love you a lot. But it's too late. Maybe you're just an angel God sent to me to change my life and make me a better person but eventually, you have to be taken away in the end. Maybe I should be satisfied already that at least I had the chance to treasure you and have a good time feeling blessed before everything comes to an end. At least, I don't have to see your back when you're walking away and letting go my hands which I hate to see most, yet with tears and arguments. You can't change who you are, so am I. I should have known good things have to come to an end. There's no happily ever after for fairytales in real life, but I'm glad we had a fairytale named "Josophia" before. Now, it has to end. After so much we've been through, you're being so cruel and determined with your decision no matter what I did, I know there's nothing I can change anymore. I hate you for not giving me another chance and a little more time. Remember I'll always be there for you and that I will wait for you while I still can. I'm willing to exchange my misery and tears for your smiles and happiness. Oh God, please grant me the concentration I need for my exams, bless me. Wake me up only until November ends, I beg. And give me a better and happier new life. My loneliness and pain is killing me. Just wanna shout I LOVE YOU!! :'(

010507 to 031108

♥♥♥♥♥

This is to me myself, yeah, the useless me:

*1st day without you*

~ If I Were A Boy ~

If I were a boy

Even just for a day

I’d roll outta bed in the morning

And throw on what I wanted then go

Drink beer with the guys

And chase after girls

I’d kick it with who I wanted

And I’d never get confronted for it.

Cause they’d stick up for me.

[Chorus]

If I were a boy

I think I could understand

How it feels to love a girl

I swear I’d be a better man.

I’d listen to her

Cause I know how it hurts

When you lose the one you wanted

Cause he’s taken you for granted

And everything you had got destroyed

[Verse]

If I were a boy I

would turn off my phone

Tell everyone it’s broken

So they’d think that I was sleepin’ alone

I’d put myself first

And make the rules as I go

Cause I know that she’d be faithful

Waitin’ for me to come home (to come home)

[Chorus]

If I were a boy

I think I could understand

How it feels to love a girl

I swear I’d be a better man.

I’d listen to her

Cause I know how it hurts

When you lose the one you wanted (wanted)

Cause he’s taken you for granted (granted)

And everything you had got destroyed

[Vamp1]

It’s a little too late for you to come back

Say its just a mistake

Think I’d forgive you like that

If you thought I would wait for you

You thought wrong

[Male]

You know when you act like that

I don't think you realize how it makes me look or feel

[Beyonce]

Act like what

Why are you so jealous

It's not like i'm sleeping with the guy

[Male]

What

[Beyonce]

What

[Male]

I said yo

Why are you so jealous

It aint like I'm sleepin with the girl

[Vamp2]

But you’re just a boy

You don’t understand

Yeah you don’t understand

How it feels to love a girl someday

You wish you were a better man

You don’t listen to her

You don’t care how it hurts

Until you lose the one you wanted

Cause you’ve taken her for granted

And everything you have got destroyed

But you’re just a boy

Well, I love this song by Beyonce because I find it meaningful especially the video and lyrics of the song. It's a must-watch for all guys out there! haha.

~ All Good Things Come To An End ~

Went to Sunway Pyramid with Seak Hwee on last Saturday because she wants to look for Titus to make her sister a cap. Unfortunately, Titus was not around so we went for some little shopping :) Sakae Sushi was our brunch and J. Co Donuts were our dinner, haha. A simple but good day. So here are some of the pictures we took.

Our brunch.

Eat also wanna camwhore :D

Waiting for the lift.

Heading to the car.

At night, both of us went to 'yumcha' with Lee Ping and Shu Huey. And we almost got stucked in a carpark without ticket to get out in the middle of the night, LOL. A day full of first experiences.

*Hugs*

~ Happy Halloween ~

Another paper down from my finals, means I'm already half way through. But for the Finance paper yesterday, I know I'm soooo gonna flunked and I totally screwed it up. Maybe I deserve it, as its the subject I hate the most and no matter how I study my mind and heart wasn't with the book. The night before the paper, I could still went to 1 Utama to have my dinner with Steven and Baby as Steven wanna change the top he bought from Topshop earlier. Whatever it is, I'd better pat my butt and start preparing for my next 2 papers. And it's Halloween today! Gosh~ How am I gonna concentrate and study this way, there's party all over the clubs :D

By the way, I realised my legs are so ugly. There are bruises and scars everywhere, I seem to have hurt myself a lot recently. Went skating in Sunway Pyramid with Baby on Tuesday, it's my second time skating and the first time to skate with him after such a long time. He loves skating and would always ask me along but I refused because I had phobia with the fall which hurts my ass for a week when I learn to skate for the first time, LOL. This time I did not fall as Baby was holding me most of the time, I did scratch my leg with those shoes though. Those shoes they provide are normally not that good quality, haha. Whenever Baby is there for me, everything seems easier. I could actually kinda skate myself already although I still couldn't balance well. Hate to imagine life without u, my Baby Joe :)

Random picture in the car.

Before I stop, Happy Halloween everyone! Enjoy to the max and have fun.

*Loves & Hugz*